Reflections
Jan. 1st, 2003 05:02 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
niankhsekhmetI have learned over the years that you never put anything in an online journal or blog that you are not comfortable with your mother, your Priest, your boss, or your worst enemies reading.
I have not always been wise to this. I have had things used against me from the past. I paid for alot of mistakes, and I am very well aware that there are those who daily, sometimes even obsessively check and see what it is that I am thinking, doing, saying, writing, in an effort to find out whether or not I'm doing something that might be "of use" that will creep its way into my blogger or my livejournal. It's alright...I know about it. It will always, therefore, be my policy to never write things down here or any public forum - or say out loud those things which can be construed as trash talking others. I have, over the years, learned my lesson. I know that is hard for some folks to believe. What I have also learned is that no matter how hard I work, no matter what I do - no matter what sacrifices are made for however many long years - there are those who will continue to try to find something, anything - in order to gain the upper hand. I know that it will continue, no matter what I do or say that is good,or honorable. I guess I have learned to live with that and not care so much about it. I do care about my family and how they hurt - and in the end that hurts me.
I just wish that everyone would be supportive of each other rather than living to tear each other down. There is enough love and all that we hold dear for everyone. Making oneself feel better at the expense of others, regardless of motivation behind it, is not right.
I only hope and pray that it can change.
I have not always been wise to this. I have had things used against me from the past. I paid for alot of mistakes, and I am very well aware that there are those who daily, sometimes even obsessively check and see what it is that I am thinking, doing, saying, writing, in an effort to find out whether or not I'm doing something that might be "of use" that will creep its way into my blogger or my livejournal. It's alright...I know about it. It will always, therefore, be my policy to never write things down here or any public forum - or say out loud those things which can be construed as trash talking others. I have, over the years, learned my lesson. I know that is hard for some folks to believe. What I have also learned is that no matter how hard I work, no matter what I do - no matter what sacrifices are made for however many long years - there are those who will continue to try to find something, anything - in order to gain the upper hand. I know that it will continue, no matter what I do or say that is good,or honorable. I guess I have learned to live with that and not care so much about it. I do care about my family and how they hurt - and in the end that hurts me.
I just wish that everyone would be supportive of each other rather than living to tear each other down. There is enough love and all that we hold dear for everyone. Making oneself feel better at the expense of others, regardless of motivation behind it, is not right.
I only hope and pray that it can change.
